As my good friend DC has told me many a time...University is an awfully strange time for people. You have a new home but it's not really your home because you're never that 100% settled because where you live is where you study. And I'm just coming to the end of that I spose. I just finished the penultimate term of my degree and it feels like now is the end and i just have this overwhelming feeling of uncertainty over my future. I'm searching for the security and certainty of life that society tells us we need. So much of society is based on sex and as a christian im a no-sex-before-marriage-er i feel like we have engrained in us that we have to have a partner and someone to be complete. But because as a christian i don't go down that particular path of life it's almost as if society is screaming at me that i'm incomplete, that i should be in a relationship going somewhere.
But I, Daniel Charles Geroge Barrett, am not in a relationship find myself pining for this feeling that will fill the gap that society tells me there is in my life...*BREEEATHE*...and I realise that...hold on...i need to figure this out...
I can't stop my life from moving into places that god wants me to go because i'm afraid of missing out on something because then i may well be missing out on the very thing that i'm searching for... :-| ...
So what can I do?... first and foremost i thnk i have to figure out what my dreams are. What have i always dreamt of doing? I think that i need to pray about these things and write them down otherwise i'm afraid that i'll end up having a life where i am in full time regret. And i dont want to live a life of regret...i want to live a life where i can say that i didn't miss out on any of lifes opportunities by not being in the right place at the right time.
So what does this mean?...Prayer i suppose. I feel that only through prayer will i realise the true desires of my heart. So i guess i gotta pray and fast and fast and pray. Thing is that fasting isn't really voluntary at the moment! HA!
Anyway...I'm gonna get back to work. Looking forward to sleep!
Dx
(listening to Israel and New Breed Album - Real)
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Am with you all the way on this one man. Society is so full of lies and a life that means nothing, when the only thing we need in life is the Father,
Blessings,
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