Something about an Irresistable Revolution

I feel as though the very basis of my faith has been shaken.
You know why?...because it's almost as though my faith in God has no basis. It's just a way of life.

I am a martyr without a cause.
In complete honesty I would lay down my life for my way of life more than for justice, for others...which is crap.
And I have no idea of how to get the cause...

I want to stand up.
I want to go and learn what justice is.
I guess I could read of it in the bible...that would be the 'christian' thing right?
But to me words are just words.
I can;t see them.
I can;t feel them, smell them or taste them.

O God.

Let us stand rather than expect the world to fall into our hands. Let us go with love.
I pray for the heart of Jesus.
I pray for the same heart that sent a man to die on a cross for people he didn;t know, but would come to know him in time.
I pray for the same heart that sent Nehemiah to Jerusalem some 140 years post the destruction of the city to rebuild the Church that laid in ruins.

I pray and I fast.

I fast and I pray.

Like I've said before. If we are not radicals, then what is the point? What is the point in having our lives so sorted if we are not living with love for those Jesus told us to love.

I want to love with the heart of Christ.

That is all.
That's the only thing I want in life. Forget salaries and cars and houses and a lifestyle. What is it without love?

God - show me.