On my Thursday 4th January 06 I mean 07 (how many times have you done that so far this year?...) walk home from work, I began questioning and arrived at another place of dissatisfaction.
Did anyone else see the clear blue sky this morning? Absolutely beautiful with a nice crisp breeze that really wakes you up.
That was at about twenty past 8...at twenty past 3 this afternoon, the sky had turned grey.
What is it about the colour grey that is just so...digustingly dampening?
Here's where I link my musings with the twentysomethings christian existence...Why are Christians so in love with a GREY existence?
I've been listening to some podcasts by a guy in seattle US called Pastor Mark Driscoll. One of the questions I've heard that has been asked to him is 'How to I know if I;m really a Christian?'.
His answer is: 'If you truly love Christ, then you are a Christian. No doubt'.(ok...so that's paraphrased a bit). I lived a grey life. I would go to church and my faith was never black nor white. I was neither fully submitted to Christ and my heart never fully loved Christ.
Now?...I'm learning. I'm moving, I;m growing and progressing.
Where are you?
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I always struggled with that. 'Do I really love Christ?' How do you weigh the amount of love you feel for someone? I try to compare it to how much I love my family, my sister, but... that can be very easily expressed in conversation and in time spent DOING things together, only sporadically do I DO things with God thinking about how much I love him, go for walks/ runs etc with him.
But why is this: When we have a crush on someone and we can't stop thinking about them, can't wait to get to a spot of reception just to tell them that we tripped on our shoe-lace today and it was really REALLY funny; can't wait to get home to call them for over an hour to talk about... nothing much really... BUT, we don't ever (I don't at least) or rarely at least, respond to God in that way. I don't crave him the way I do a guy I might fancy. Isn't that pitiful? So then that leads me into doubt about how much I really love him.
I know I do... in that familiar way... but clearly that's not enough. Thankfully, I know that I'm a Christian just because... I wouldn't be able to cope if I wasn't. I don't think anything would make any sense. Is that enough logic?
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