Starbucks

Just sitting in Starbucks.

I missed out on an opportunity to say hello to some people I know that God wanted me to talk to. You know how I missed this? Because I didn't to look like an idiot. I hate when that happens. I hate when I ignore the voice of God. That's the worst thing.

Connect group here I come.

What can wash away my sin?

What can make me whole again?

Nothing but the blood of Jesus. 

The blood of Jesus.

Is it just me or are there aspects and concepts within Christianity that we have to constantly refamiliarise ourselves with. I guess thats what was meant when Paul instructed that we should constantly engaging in the renewal of our minds. 

And I don't think that comes through listening to some music or by just sitting down and waiting for God to place a tablet of stone in your lap with the answers. That's my figurative attitude by the way. But I guess you could say that Christianity requires more of you than your time. It requires your heart, your dreams, your love - all of which I believe God placed within us for his glory to start with. 

It's like life is the playing out of this diverse and ever changing relationship between us and God. God pursues us through life...and he never gives up. 

Would it be right to call us brothers and sisters in Christ the carriers of the pursuit?...if that makes sense. We carry the love of God that seeks the lost, the hurting, the lonely, the orphaned, the poor. We are the carriers of justice and all that is right.

That is why I pray 'Break my heart for what breaks yours'. That is why I desperately want to understand the ways and intricacies of Gods love. 

But I'm just getting back to a place where that's possible...and I've got Australia in 5 weeks. Which if I'm really honest...I cannot wait for. I hope that I can find God...it's like God hides in different countries for different people. Or that you just feel more at ease and more open to the voice of God when you are goodness knows how many thousand miles away from working nights, worrying about where you are meant to go to church and constantly trying to analyse your own mind and thoughts.

Maybe...just maybe...I can disconnect from those pressures. 

Please...let me disconnect from those pressures for those 5 weeks and get the perspective and revelation that you know I need.

(Listening to: Hillsong United - The I Heart Revolution: With Hearts as One) 

I just ate like...2/3rds of a loaf of bread...